Mood:  quizzical

I'm feeling stuffed. Got a whole lot of chaos dancing around in my head and not really sure where to start. Need to be honest with myself and stop filling up with distractions. I'm feeling like I about to turn a corner and the clarity is pooling around my edges. My head has been covered in clouds, not ready to embrace reality and my higher power is telling me it's time to bridge that gap between heart and head.

  I'm allowed to be scared, to fear fear. But it's time to grow...I no longer want to be held back from my fear. I no longer want to ponder what ifs and be bound by possible rejection or failures. I AM good enough, strong enough, and loveable. I AM worthy of what life has to offer and the good people that surround me.  I don't have to lie, manipulate, or create a situation to get what I want or what I deserve. If I am patient, loving, kind, and work hard, the rest will take care of itself.

  So Trinity, I am asking, no begging you to help me take care of myself. I want to live in the moment, not the future. I want to feel to the tips of my fingertips and fall desperately in love with a man that is desperately in love with me. I want to open my heart up to a man who can challenge me and take care of me and who is man enough to go after what he wants. I want to stop seeing the potential in people and recognize them for who they are now and what they are capable in this moment!! I want a man who sees me for my uniqueness and who is willing to put everything on the line to be with me. Someone who will sacrifice for me and place me on his pedastool. I deserve to be loved that much...

   Life is nothing without love and sorrow. I've done my share of yearning. It's time to move past the desire and put thoughts into action. I am the master of my destiny. If I want the above, I need to put it out there and start being true to myself! I'm tired of playing games. For today, it's all about honesty...