Mood:  amorous

I always seem to be writing about men. I started this evening inspired by the knowledge that I don't need to let men define my life. And here I am, not even 2 hours later thinking about a man, wanting to call him. Can I be anymore girlie?

I don't like to feel out of control. To have my destiny in the hand of another. Truth be told, if there is any relationship to spring out of this connection that I feel between us, he has to work for it to.  I can't be the one always calling him and initiating everything.

I often wonder if  this relationship  is in my head...that this is all a manifestation of my wants and desires. But the moment I am with him, all of that insecurity disappears. It feels right, sincere and genuine. And mutual. 

 I suppose I will just have to give it time. Give him a chance to figure out what he wants. I'm always one for instant gratification by maybe just maybe someone is trying to tell me something... to exert a little patience. With work, the house, men. Let it go and they will come to you!

Someone recently told me that if you want something..wish for it really really hard. I'm wishing. If it's meant to be, let him come to me!